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While Shizuru messed up, I'm not nearly so down on her for what she said to Yoka. It wasn't nice, but why it wasn't nice is very important. Shizuru's line of thinking has been present across the episodes. In episode 3, she expressed that she was fine failing at school because studying was hard. She told Yoka that she too would like to be smart, but immediately backed away from that notion when Yoka told her it would take studying and hard work.
We saw a little of their nighttime conversation in episode 1, and now that we've seen the rest, it's clearly a continuation of Shizuru's doubts about herself and her ability to commit to studying and hard work. She sees herself as just a regular girl living in a small town at the very end of a train line. Sure, she's saying normal is all herself and Yoka will ever be... but she isn't really talking about Yoko. In truth, Shizuru is amazed by how smart Yoko is. How big her dreams are. Shizuru just got so caught up in being down on herself that she included Yoka in her statements by the end. That she still clings to what she told Yoka has nothing to do with Yoka's dreams and everything to do with her still not believing in herself.
Maybe a life changing adventure on a certain doomsday train to the end of the world will finally get Shizuru to see the potential inside herself? She's good at martial arts. She makes a decent leader or at least someone willing to go forth and act. She learned to drive the train and taught that to others. She just needs to believe in herself and to apologize for pushing her problems onto Yoka. The real reason she set out in the first place is to make up with her friend, but I'm thinking and hoping she'll find a lot more along the way!
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